We were Blessed!!

We had an awesome Christmas and I hope you all did too.. Other than Atazia was sick with the flu. The kids all got what they wanted for from Santa..

Qwade - Nerf Gun and target

Atazia - Makeup

Kristosha - a baby doll that laughs and shakes..

They had a lot of fun opening presents and eating all their candy from their stockings.. It was a very good and fun day... However Chad and I got the best surprise of all... Drum roll Please!...... We got a house in ID on 12 acres for just a little more than what we're paying here it has 5 bedrooms and three full baths.. We are so excited we'll be moved in toward the end of next month!! Yay finally a new place that isn't covered in mold, mildew and oldness... The plugs work, the wind will stay outside for a change and it's bigger than 900 sqft...(oh and it's not over a 100yrs old) So excited I can't even wait in fact I haven't slept very well because I keep imagining where I'm going to put all our stuff and how I'm going to decorate etc... Also we have some more great news... Chad is officially a Herboligy student as of last Monday.. He is more excited about that then the house, probably because he won't be spending as much time at the house as we will... that and he's been waiting many years to be able to do this... We're all so excited in fact this morning Qwade woke up at 5am to start packing all his stuff he even went into the garage and got some boxes to pack all his stuff in! When he was done he came into my room and asked what he can pack next he wanted to do all the movies.. I chuckled to see him so excited that he was willing to work !! (shock..LOL) But to be honest I kind of feel the same way I think we're all very ready to move..We are so blessed, Life is great and things are finally moving forward for the better... (I'll take some pictures of the house when I get moved in and post them so you can all see what it looks like...) Have a great day and happy new year!

Christmas Traditions!

Tradition!

We have kept some of the traditions that I had when I was a kid and when Chad was a kid and I thought I'd share some of them with you. On the first Saturday of the month we decorate our tree except we do NOT string popcorn (I hated doing that when I was a kid) Chad wasn't there but my mom came over and helped us. My mom loved it and so did we...

Then Last Night we made our homemade ordiments that we do every year!!

Qwades - Atazia's - Kristosha's - Chads -Mine -Hope you are all having a wonderful Christmas season so far... I know we are in spite of not having chad home but we're praying he'll be home for Christmas.... Have a wonderful day!

I put curlers in Atazia's hair last night.. thinking that since her hair doesn't hold curl from the curling iron that this would give her a wave... UH No it's more like kinky curly central..Not what I was expecting and then of course there was the frizz factor included..

SO here's my little girl who looks like she just put her finger in a socket, Qwade and kristosha laughing their heads off and it took everything I had not to laugh my head off. Poor kid considering I'm the one who made her that way..LOL

But after a couple of mins of putting some frizz stuff in her hair and putting a couple of berets....Her hair looks Much Much better... What a cutie pie.. Even if she does look a bit like Shirley Temple..

Funeral.

Grandma's funeral was on Tuesday but i didn't get home until late last night.. It was a wonderful service I learned so much about my grandma and how wonderful she really was.. I wish I had known her in her younger years I think we would have been great friends. I will miss her but I'm happy for her....

Grandma Dot...

My wonderful Grandma Gough died this morning at 3am... Its bitter sweet, I am so glad to see her completely out of pain and back in the arms of my grandpa... however it's sad to see someone we love move on. My grandma Dot hasn't known who I am for many years however i still remember her and how sweet and wonderful she always was to me.. She seemed at times to be the only one who understood me as i was growing up.. Oh how i love her, I never went to visit her when she was put in an Alzheimer hospital because i couldn't bear the thought of her not knowing me I wanted to remember her like she was before. With her face all lit up because she was so happy to see me we would talk for hours about anything and everything.. I'll treasure those days forever. But for now I am happy for her she is whole and happy of this i have no doubt. Good-bye grandma until we meet again you are forever in my heart.

I'm back....

It's beging to look a lot like Christmas.....
It's been a while I know... I meant to post a couple of months ago but life took hold and hasn't given me a break but I decided that today was the day to start again although I only have about 15 mins before I need to get back to school with the kids. So I'll make this quick...

Most years I dread this time of the year because we never have enough, of you know what, to buy the things we'd like. However this year has a different meaning for me.. My perception has changed, this year I realize how much I really do have, and that all I really want is my husband home and my family safe and sound. I look back on the years of my married life and I am so grateful for all the secret Santa's, gracious people, family and ward members who have come to our need whenever we wondered when our next meal would be or how we would buy diapers or buy clothes for our children.. Today I have a special prayer of gratitude in my heart for the thoughtfulness of others and the many, many blessings in our life... Although our life has taken a totally different turn than I ever imagined I realize that it has made me a more happier, loving, forgiving, faithful and compassionate person then I ever was before I married and because of this I wouldn't trade all the heartache and trails we've had for the world. We are truly blessed, I am truly blessed...
It is my hope that this year we all focus more on giving more kindness to those in our wards or neighborhood not so much material things but a genuine hello, or a hug or even just a phone call to let them know your thinking of them. Believe me I know how much that would mean to know you haven't been forgotten in all the hustle and bustle of the holidays.. Merry Christmas every one and be safe this season....

Life is Crazy Busy!

Life is crazy busy, between all the traveling I'm doing, kids to take care of and a business to build... All of my effort and focus is toward bringing Chad home so be patient I'll post as soon as I can but right now I'm taking a sabbatical from the blog world!! Have a wonderful Summer EVERYONE!!!Life is Good, God is Great and we are learning!!!

Week # 9!

Chad won't be home again this weekend because when he gets into SLC on Monday he has to turn around and head back out for the 9th week in a row without a break... It's been hard on all of us but we are grateful to have income coming in that allows us to build our business pay our bills and buy our food.... So I'm not complaining too loud I just miss my honey...And the kids miss their father... but on the up side we are blessed and excited for the wonderful changes going on in our life... life is good God is great and we are learning...

Back Home!!

We are back home after a quick trip to Peterson on Saturday... Chad and I got to go to a business training yesterday in Provo that was so Amazing! We got to meet so many successful people that live here in Utah and to hear so many wonderful stories as well and of course we learned how to be successful business owners.... I can't wait until next month when we go to Cleveland Ohio for the International training! That is going to be more than awesome because we'll get to meet and hear from some of the most successful people in the world.... Can't wait... Anyway we had chad home (well at his moms house) for a whole 24 hours and then he was off again for the 8th week in a row with-out a break... Oh how I can't wait until we can bring him home for good... Won't that make just the best Christmas Present EVER! to have our kids with a full time daddy and a wife with a full time Hubby!.... Can't wait for that day what a wonderful wonderful day that will be Oh and how I'm going to make as big of a deal as I can about it.... Life is Great, God is wonderful and we are learning....

Happy Birthday!!!

Yesterday was Chad's birthday he is now 34yrs old wow it's been almost 10 years since we met.. Life has been quite interesting that is for sure... Anyway yesterday was a very trying day for him at 12:00 am exactly chad was driving on his way to CA for work to drop off a gun trailer when at 65 miles per hour his front wheel and axle passed him on the freeway!!! Luckily no one was hurt however it had to be very scary to have that happen he says he felt Heavenly Fathers angels watching over him and keeping him safe. He kept his cool and was able to pull over and take care of the matter. I didn't sleep well that night I kept feeling anxious I figured this must of been why I was so restless... Anyway I am so glad that he was safe and no one got hurt... This is just how Chad is every time we have a major thing happen to us I'll freak and he'll just stay calm and collected and get the job done.. This is something I have always admired about my husband he is always able to stay calm when it comes to danger or life and death situations... Me on the other hand panic and start thinking of the worst case scenario... Life so far has been full of these kinds of things for us but we are always kept safe and secure through it all... We are truly watched over and blessed... I have noticed in the time we have been together we have always, in every situation, been able to balance each other out when I'm down he's up and vies verse... We usually choose to laugh when things go wrong because if we don't we'll cry and we all know where crying leads.. (red eyes, stuffy nose and a head-ache. Who ever wants that) In fact the other day I took my sister in law Shelly out for dinner and she said that one of the things she has noticed about us over the years is that we are always there for each other and we are always able to lift the other up... That made me feel good. There have been and still are many people out there that thought we were completely crazy to get married as quickly as we did and that we would never make it..(from the time we met until we got married was 4 months) Both of our parents were some of them..they didn't think we were being wise and that we didn't even know each other.. But the fact of the matter is that we both knew we were meant for each other and that we are completely compatible for each other. I am so glad I listened to the spirit and not to the nay sayers back then or I would have missed out on a wonderful life filled with adventure, change and love. Chad is my Knight and shining armor the one I always dreamed of, the one who would come and sweep me off my feet... I love him with all of my heart... Happy Birthday Babe.....

They do listen!

This is for those of you who don't think that what you teach your children is getting through.... Yesterday Qwade woke up with a really bad bladder infection and a fever of 102.6 .I asked him how he thought he got it and this is what he said.. " Well this morning I prayed to Heavenly Father and he told me that I haven't been drinking enough water and he told me that I need to drink more water and that I needed to stay away from cheese and bread, so I told him that I would. So mom what can I do for the pain?" First off I was completely caught off guard when he told me this because he was so matter of fact. It was really neat to see my son taking the principles that we have taught him and applying them through prayer.. Anyway I ended up giving him two cranberry tablets every hour with a glass of water as well as raspberry tea three times yesterday and two capsules of kidney-bladder (by Dr. Christopher) three times a day. Well this morning he woke up without a fever and no pain. I love herbs and the knowledge that I keep gaining on how to use them. Learning how to apply herbs for our benefit sure has saved us a ton of money not to mention Dr visits... It is truely a blessing to be given ways to heal ourselves without the need of medications or other such things that could end up hurting us one way or the other. Life is good, God is Great and we are learning...

Become who you were Meant to Become!

I am about to share with you something that I learned a few years ago but have been leery of sharing it because I didn't really know how to put it so that you would understand but lately the desire to share it has grown with great strength therefore I can not keep it to myself any longer. You know, I am one who likes to sit back and observe people I like to watch their body language and listen to the way they talk. And more and more I hear women and men, people I know and love around me saying they are no good because they struggle with this or that or because they were raised a certain way.. Where do we get this belief that we are worthless that because we aren't as good as we think we should be that we are not worth anyone's time or that we can't be really loved?
There was a time I use to believe this same way, but I'll tell you now, that is far from the truth. I have learned that I am wanted and worth more than gold or any precious thing on this earth. I truly know and believe that I am a very loved and adored daughter of my Father and mother in heaven. And they want me to succeed more then anything. Not only on a spiritual level but as well as a temporal level they want to bless me with all the desires of my heart that are in alignment with my higher self. Yes I make mistakes, heaven knows how many I make a day, and yes I feel down and discouraged sometimes I even act and say things that are inappropriate but it doesn't make them love me or want to bless me any less.. I have learned that if I believe on a subconscious level that I should be punished for something I did then my subconscious mind will create a situation that will allow me to learn the lesson I believe I should be learning. (what you believe on a subconscious level is your root belief it's what you really desire and want deep inside) And because my Father and Savior love me so much they will allow me to bring about those circumstances that I feel I deserve on a subconscious level. When I came to really understand this principle a part of me wanted to reject it, because if it were true then that means I would have to be accountable for my actions and not blame the circumstance or the person or people in it. I would have to accept that I brought upon myself my own problems because of the way I felt or thought I should have it. When I realized I had this much power and control over my own life and the things that happened in it. I could no longer stand idly by and say it was God who wants me to have this trail or this struggle, no it was me, myself , I somehow believed on a subconscious level that I should have this because there was something I needed to learn from it that I wasn't learning any other way. It was hard to grasp and swallow but the spirit spoke the truth. In the scriptures it says as a man think it, so is he.. I never really understood that until now. If we think negative we therefore believe it and bring negative things into our life's or if we dwell on something that we don't want we will bring more of that into our life however if we dwell on having lets say perfect health or enough money then we will attract that into our life that is why is is so important to control and be aware of our every thought and feeling... Thoughts and feeling have so much more power then most of us understand... They are the most powerful tools we have, we must take stewardship of them and use them for only positive and righteous things. We are held accountable for what we say or do as well as for what we think and believe. We are God's children, literally, that gives us the right to call upon the powers of heaven to direct our life's the way we ultimately desire so long as it's in alignment with our higher self's. We can call upon angles in the name or our savior Jesus Christ to orchestrate the details of our life's. We can become the people that we ultimately desire if we believe we can. Now it isn't always easy but oh how much easier it is when you have a whole host of angels waiting anxiously to assist you in every aspect of your life if you but ask... All we have to do is ask (knock), believe, and trust that it is happening right now. Jesus Christ said "I never said it would be easy I only said it would be worth it." But how many of us make it oh so much harder then it really has to be? Heavenly Father and our brother Jesus Christ WANTS us, with all their hearts, to succeed and they have given us access to all the Heavenly Power that we are entitled to just because we are children of our Heavenly Father and Mother if we but believe and ask. That is all we need to do..... It is my prayer that all of us come to understand and believe that we were meant to succeed in every aspect of our life's we just have to want it and believe it and it will come too pass.
Now understand something I am not perfect at this nor do I completely understand the vastness of this principle, in fact I still have a ways to go, but all that really matters is that I'm on the right tract. I have more help than I ever thought possible, until now, to get to the person I always knew I could be... I tell you these things because I feel that everyone should know this truth and come to understand and live it. There is a book that will help you understand these truths even more it's called "Remembering Wholeness" by Carol Tuttle. Remember one more thing, we are all held accountable for what we learn and if we do not use what we learn or refuse to use it because we may be afraid of change or have to face the reality of what we have done or do then it will affect you and your posterity in one shape or another. It may not affect you in this life but it will in the next. We are here to help one another and what better way to help our fellowmen then to help them reach their highest potential. To become the person we covenanted with our Father in Heaven we would become before we came to earth. We are all Gods in our own right it is about time we started being who were are meant to be..... May all your dreams and desires come true in every aspect of your life!!!!

Life is good, God is great, and we are learning......

Life is Wonderful!!!

Sorry it's been a while since my last post, but life has been CRAZY busy. I have been driving, it seems, everywhere in northern Utah building my business..It's been so much fun...I love meeting new people and reconnecting with people I haven't seen in years.. Like last weekend I got the opportunity to reconnect with my Uncle Marice and Aunt Tara.. It was so wonderful I really enjoined being with them. It's fun to see them as parents and they are wonderful ones at that too. Last weekend my Niece got baptized and it made the realization that Qwade will soon enjoy the same blessings of baptism as well. It made me sad (that he's growing up) and excited at the same time I can't wait for his special day... I am thoroughly enjoying my life right now Chad commented the other day when he saw me "babe you are doing what you are meant to do right now and you are doing an awesome job you are just glowing with joy..." That made me feel so good that he would say that to me especially when I feel exactly that way. I am truly blessed to have such a loving and supporting family... Even my kids are getting into the action and helping me build my business they are going up to people at stores and asking "do you have a cell phone?" if it is yes then they say " well my mom can help you get as good of a deal as you have now, not if not better, my mom's name is Elisha and she is way nice" Most people get a huge kick out of it and so do I we laugh and end up talking it's a wonderful ice breaker even if it is a little embarrassing but fun non the less... When I started this business I asked my kids if they would help me bring daddy home for Christmas for good they said they would but I wasn't thinking of them helping me in this way I was think more on the lines of being patient with me while I'm gone so much.. I guess they figured they could be apart of this as well, after all it is a family business... Life is good, God is Great and people are crazy....

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Life is good, God is great and people are crazy...

My Five year old!!

Atazia, Atazia what a sweetheart..Full of energy and laughter. She is now five years old and she let's everyone and I mean everyone know it too.. In fact when we went to the store the other day she went up to a older gentlemen and said "Guess What?" he said "What?" "I am five (she holds up her hand with her fingers spread as far as they will go) and I am so big now just like my brother!" the gentlemen smiled and said "Wow, you are big!" she said "I know" so matter of fact like that it made him chuckle then she just walked away with a great big grin.. I thought how funny, she is just so proud to be five... What is it about that number that makes kids so giddy with excitement?... Is is the start of school, or just another year older, is it some kind of mile stone? I'm not sure all I know is that the fifth year is SOOOOOOOOOOOO much better then all the years before. They have more vocabulary more coordination more desire to be independent and I love that... (Don't get me wrong I love to see them grow but this year and forward so far have been my favorite... NO more potty training less fit throwing etc.) I am looking forward to see what kind of women my energy filled, giddy, silly, fun, cute little girl will turn into.. Life is good, God is Great and people are crazy!!

Family/Easter..

Our Family Picture!!

Chad kissing my neck!!

Our Handsome Qwade Dean 7.5yrs

Our Princess Atazia 5.yrs

Kristosha Bree our angel..20 months

Exciting Changes....

Well I've done it! I have finally been able to say SO LONG 200's and HELLO to the 100's. It has taken a long time and a lot of tears and frustration but I've done it and I don't have any plans to ever visit..... If you don't know what I'm talking about I'll explain.. I am now 190lbs and a size 14 CAN YOU BELIEVE IT!! I haven't been this small since right before I got pregnant with Atazia 6 yrs ago. I went shopping with my mom last Friday and she can verify that I was giddy with excitement when I could finally fit into a size 14... In fact I was talking about it so much I had three ladies approach me and ask me my secret. And of course I told them all about Dr. Christopher and the Mucusless diet. The cool thing is now that I've got my mom on it she is testament that it works too. Considering she was close to death three weeks ago and now she has her color back and her eyes are bright and clear and she has more energy then I've seen her have in at least four years heck she was able to carry Kristosha (24lbs) around without any problems. (I'm so proud of her) Anyway I got a new Easter Dress (first dress I have bought in at least 8 yrs) and new dress pants and a blouse. I am so proud of myself that may sound vain but if you only knew what I have gone through in the last 9 yrs with the weight issue you would so understand.. Well my ultimate goal is to be a size 10 and around 145-150 by the end of the summer if not by the end of the year for sure. So come back often and see my progress. When I finally get to my goal weight I will go and get professional pictures done(i.e. My mom) and then I'll have a comparison.

P.S. I know these pictures of me are not the best but at least you'll get a better idea of how much I've changed in the last 15 months. (phone cameras not the best but will do for now) and also for those of you who have been wondering Chad has lost 65lbs in 15 months and has gone down from a size 46 to a size 40. I am beyond proud of him he has done all this despite kidney and health problems... Life is good, God is great and people are Crazy!!

Spring...

Spring is my favorite time of year it's fresh and clean especially after a rain storm. I love to watch plants, animals, and all around just come alive with the warmth of the sun. One of the biggest reasons I love spring is because it's my perfect temperature it's not too cold and it's not too hot it's perfect if I could find a place that was like spring all year round I'd be the first to move. Not only does the world come alive in Spring so do my children they want to be outside and play and turn their little imaginations on full bore. I love to watch them create new games, forts, and just plain play. Spring is a time of remembering what our Savior did for us, It's a time to reflect on our goals and desires, A time to grow and change just as the season. Spring is a reminder to open our hearts and share our talents, time and knowledge with those around us. Spring is to help us see the inner beauty of everything around us. Spring is Beautiful. And for those of you who don't know This is right behind my house in Laketown this area also has a pond that we go fishing at all the time. Beautiful isn't it..

St. Patrick's day...

Yesterday was a fun Green day.. In school we did everything around St. Patrick's day and the color Green. The kids got their face painted,they made leprechauns and had fun eating green food..It was a fun day.

Potty training Time...

Well it's official Kristosha is being potty trained...Not because I want her to be (although I'm not against of course) but last week she started coming up to me and telling me that she had gone potty in her dipper even if it was just a tiny bit. As soon as I would take off her dipper she would get up and run to the bathroom and point to the toilet so I put her on it and then she'd go. I was so proud of her and since then she's been going regularly so instead of going through 20 dippers a day I went and bought training pants. Needless to say she loves them, i also got her tinker bell toilet seat (she was scared of the normal toilet seat since she's fallen in a couple of times.) so far she's only had 2-3 accidents each day... My baby is growing up....

Tape Fun.

Who would have known that Masking Tape could be so much fun. Atazia came to me and asked me to tape her mouth and eyes shut I asked her why and she said "mom I think it would be so cool" I chuckled at that so I did what she asked and then Kristosha came running in and wanting the same and then of course Qwade too.. I thought it was too funny so I took pictures..Afterward the kids posed some more for the camera. It's days like this I wonder where my kids come up with the things they do. LOL

Another week of sickness..

We are Starting week three of sinus infections for all of us except Chad (lucky).. Oh how I hate being sick even more I hate it when all three of the kids are sick because all day long all I hear is Wine, Wine, and more Wine I am wondering where all the cheese is to go along with the wine. (it might help...lol...) Anyway Chad came home for the weekend it was so nice to have him home but today he has to leave again...so sad. I hope the week goes fast so we can see him again soon. I hope that next week we will all be well and healthy again and we can start enjoying the warmer weather we are getting, soon we won't have to deal with this icky SNOW...Live is good, GOD is great and people are crazy...

Birthday Girl...

Yesterday was Atazia's birthday she turned 5 Yrs old.. I can't believe it, where has the time gone..She was so excited to turn 5 and she got spoiled we took her out to her first movie theater earlier in the week with Dad and saw Alvin and the Chipmunks The Squeakquel she loved it and then we took her out to dinner at her favorite place (which is anywhere that serves Chinese) and had Chinese food and of course She loved it. Then yesterday we played a game which is called Jenga Max it's a lot of fun and she got to eat her strawberry cake with nerds on it and then she opened presents she received.Qwade gave her a Fairy Princess Barbie, from Kristosha she got a game called The Ladybug Game it's really quite fun for little kids. From Laura and Jayson she got a digital Camera, From mom and dad she got a new kid computer, From Nicole and William she got a new outfit, From Grandma and Grandpa Gough she got a princess puzzle and a doll bed that she loves and 5 dollars. She already wants to spend it...lol. From Grandpa and Grandma Duncan she got a new spring dress for church. So in all this little girl had a great 5th birthday.. Love you my little princess.

Our Getaway!!

Monday...

Chad defiantly surprised me. Our two day getaway started with leaving early in the morning then dropping off the kids at Grandma Duncan's. Then Chad took me to Joe's Crab Shack so that we could enjoy crab and lobster for lunch, Yummy!!
Then he took me to a movie called Percy Jackson*Olympian and the Lighting Thief. Which was really good, surprisingly.

And then we checked into our room at Castle Creek Inn (this is where we went on our honeymoon) then went to a Play at the Desert Star Playhouse called Twi-lite I was a teenage vampire. It was so funny it was a spoof off of Glee and Twilight. By the end of the night my checks were hurting so bad. I love going to plays I wish Utah had more of them.

We went back to Castle Creek Inn and enjoyed a romantic night in our room, The Excalibur. In the morning we had breakfast there and then we checked out at 11:00am To head to our next destination...

Tuesday..

Chad took me out to lunch at a place called Benihana's It was so Cool the grill is at the table you sit at and you get your own chief and he does all kinds of tricks with the knifes and spatula's as well as your food. We had the Hibachi Shrimp for two. We also tried some sushi for the first time ever, I actually liked it so did chad.. It was so much fun I can't wait to go back there again..


After Lunch we went window shopping and goofed off then went and rented a couple of movies and checked into Our next bed and breakfast The Anniversary Inn. We have never been there before but we had a lot of fun the name of our room was Wild West..We had a wonderful time with a bit of wild thrown in if you know what I mean..;)


The next day we were reluctant to leave and get back to reality. But we needed too so that Chad could have some time with the kids before he headed out on the road again. But it was such a wonderful getaway it was the first time since our honeymoon that we have ever gotten away just the two of us like that. It was much needed....Life is good, God is Great and people are Crazy..

P.S. Chad Promises that it won't be another 9 yrs before we do this again.. I hope not I had way too much fun to wait for that.. smiles.

So Excited...

Guess What? Chad's coming home and he's got a whole week off..And next Wednesday is our anniversary how sweet is that!!! But to make things even more exciting Chad's got a whole two day get away planed for our anniversary. I'm SOOOOO Excited I can hardly stand it.. This will be the first time since our honeymoon that we have been able to afford doing something just the two of us on our anniversary..I don't know what to think I'm getting spoiled two weeks in a row..My husband ROCKS!!!! Hopefully I can sleep I've got butterflies in my tummy for how excited I am...And to top it off I have officially lost 82 lbs in ONE year and one month went from a size 26 to a size 16 So AWESOME!!! I want to get down to a size 10-12 so I'm thinking by the end of the summer I'll be there...I have two things that I contribute to my weight loss First- The Mucus-less Diet (it's a whole new way of eating that is wonderful and always leaves me satisfied Dr. Christopher created it) And # Two P90X baby..I hate it but I LOVE it..When I get down to where I ultimately want to be I'll do a before and after picture for all to see...Can't wait.. I'll let every one know what my surprise is next week sometime...Life is good, God is great and people are crazy...

My Valentine Surprise..

Well I hope all of you had a wonderful valentines. I sure did Chad surprised me with a dozen roses and a two hour massage. Which I absolutely loved..We got to spend two days with chad which was much needed we have missed him so much the kids especially. Now he's back out on the road for another week or two. We miss you babe..

My Valentine...

My one true Love..Can you guess?? It's my best friend, my lover, the father of my children, my Eternal Companion. Chad, the man of my dreams. I loved him the first time I ever saw him. I knew at that very moment I had found the one person that was meant for me and me alone.. We have been through a lot in the last 9yr, a lot of tears have been shed from frustration and joy..He has been my teacher and the one shoulder I could always cry on. No one has nor can they make me laugh like he does. I can never stay mad at him very long because he always finds a way to make me smile...I love you with all my heart I couldn't have asked for more...

Grandpa's..

I love my grandpa's. Even though my grandpa Gough has pass away I still think of him....One of the things I remember the best about my grandpa Gough is that he use to love to take us out to eat in fact I remember one time when Chad and I were first married and he took us to a Mexican restaurant there in Kanab and we were talking I don't remember what lead to him saying this but I've never forgotten it He said "you two don't need to worry about the world right now just say busy living on the vapors of Love" It made us laugh then and it still does with love in our hearts. My grandpa Anderson is still with us and I do love him, I don't know him very well but I do know how he is when ever I go see him it's like a little kid in a candy store trying really hard not to burst with excitement. His big blue eye light up with so much love you can't help but join in on the excitement. My grandpa Anderson has and still is a very hard worker and that example has taught me to work hard as well...I love my grandpa's....

Reading...

I love books.. If you know me at all you'll know where to find me in my free time..READING.. I love to read it is my escape to live a different life or experience a new realm of reality. I often put myself in the character shoes when I read, Chad always says that when I read it's like I'm not here because I can tune everything and everyone out and emerge myself in the story... I hope that one day my children will love to read as much as I do if not more one day..Books I love you..

Daughters...

I never had a sister growing up so to watch these two is so fun..They dance together play dolls together etc. However there are days that I wonder if either of them will survive the other by the end of the day. Somehow they do and you know what after family prayer they always give hugs and kisses to each other, it makes me chuckle that they could be enemies all day then at night they go to bed happy with each other. I love my daughters they are such wonderful little girls with beautiful spirits. Atazia is my fashion designer/princess/rock star/hippy/wild child/tomboy and I love every aspect of her. She brings a lot and I mean a lot of laughter into this house with the things she does and says..I love my tazi. Kristosha is the peaceful/calm/go with the flow/happy/snuggle/prissy little girl. And I love every aspect of her as well. She brings so much joy into my life she know just what to do to calm me down or make me laugh. Heavenly Father knew I needed her so that I could see learn to enjoy all my kids. I am so excited to see how these little girls of mine turn out, to see there different personalities. I say it all the time how can each one of my kids be SO completely different and yet they all come from the same parents, Amazing...I love my daughters...

Music...

I love music in most forms. I love to sing and listen to music. My favorite type of music is inspirational whether it comes in country, rock, Church etc. Music is how I get lost in my own dreams and desires even if it's just for a moment. Music has a way of touching my soul and allowing me to feel the spirit. When I emerge myself in music I feel free and alive..(of course there are other things that allow me the same feeling as well) Here are a few of my favorite songs..Because I have been given much, Jesus take the wheel, My valentine, Right here waiting, you lift me up, and A child's prayer.. These are only a few. Music I love you... ( this song I sing to the kids every night before bed it's one of their favorites)...

Sons..

My son is the best son on earth..He helps around the house, he plays with is sisters, he is always inventing ways to finish a project or job faster (even if he would have just done it, he would have finished it hours earlier..lol) He is all hands on with everything he does, he is very smart for a 7 yr old and I love to see him changing and growing..And yes we do have our yelling matches and our arguments and disobeying moments just like all kids but with all that aside I would have to say I have a fantastic son.. I couldn't have asked for better. I love the age he is at right now because he is so much fun to talk too and have conversations with. He has such a wonderful imagination... So Qwade I wanted to let you know that I love you forever and for always...

Makin Music...

Chad bought this guitar for me over 7 yrs ago..I haven't done much with it, not because I didn't want to but because I didn't know how to play it, I've always wanted to play the guitar even as a child but never had the opportunity to do so. But about a two in half months ago I decide to pick it up again and really learn this time however I got frustrated again because I couldn't understand how to read music or to keep rhythm etc. But through the wonders of the Internet I came upon this website called Jamplay that teaches the very basics up to the very advanced in guitar playing so I decided once I got the money I'd sign up for it.. Well I did about three weeks ago and it is awesome for the first time ever I understand music, and my fingers are all callused now . I'm so excited I'm hoping by this time next year I'll be Jamming with no problems and loving every minute of it even more than I do now.. The cool thing is that since my kids are seeing me practice everyday and they love the sound the guitar makes they want to learn so soon we'll get a guitar for them too, I can't wait.. I have now gotten my fingers conditioned to one hour practice time where as when I first started I could barely get through 5 mins. before I was ready to scream from pain..I just wish I could go longer.. Chad says it is now my new obsession, I always argue with him when he tells me that with a new project I start but this time I have to agree...I love playing my guitar..

The Gospel..

I though since it was Sunday I would share my love of the Gospel and the joy it brings to my life.

Where to start..hummm..Well the first thing that comes to my mind is Joesph Smith. Because of his faith and love he had of our Father in Heaven and in our Savior he became their instrument in bring the gospel into the homes and hearts of all those who believed. So that myself and my generations can enjoy the blessings the gospel brings and it's teachings. I am truly blessed that I have the gospel in my life it is my anchor through every aspect of my everyday life. I know that without the teachings and the commandments in my life to follow I would surely be lost. I know that the Book of Mormon is another testament of Christ, I love to read it for it's taught me so much I can't even begin to describe all that I've learned. I am so grateful to a husband who choose to stay strong in the gospel as he grew up and because of this is the patriarch in our home. He is a wonderful example to us.. I love the temples and what they mean and for the ordnance's that are preformed there that allows me and all those that are faithful to have an eternal family and so much more. I'm grateful for the sacrament that allows me to renew my covenants every week.. Most of all I love my Savior for all he has done for me, for the sacrifice that I can't even begin to comprehend and for the love he has for me. My desire is to report back to my Father in Heaven and my Savior and that I will be found worthy to stay in their presence forevermore. I love the Gospel....

Lots and lots of Pillows........

I totally and completely L.O.V.E pillows especially Feather pillows.. If I could I would sleep with hundreds of pillows...Chad has often laughed at me because of how I love my pillows, I don't often get upset when I loose things but if I can't find my favorite pillow (my feather pillow) then it becomes a mad house when I'm in search of it...I have to sleep with at least my feather pillow under my arm (when I'm sleeping on my side) in order to get a good night sleep but I perfer to have all 5 of my pillows..I don't know why I love pillows so much but I always have even as a child. So here's too feather pillows, I love you....

Mom's and Dad's...

Parents, we all have them some are there for us some are not, but I'm among the lucky few who have parents that have always been there for me even when we didn't see eye to eye. I've been blessed to have parents who have taught me right from wrong who taught me the gospel and not only that but who have been examples to me by living it as well. My mom and I have often butted heads but after all said and done I can honestly say that I love my dear mother she has been a wonderful example to me of how to be a wonderful wife and a woman.. My loving father has taught me to be brave and courageous in all that I do. He showed me though his own example how to reach inside the very depth of ourselves; even when we think there is nothing left there; to carry on and endure to the end.. Of all the things my parents have taught me throughout my childhood I partly contribute to the reason I am who I am today. I couldn't have done it without their loving support and prayers. I love my parents...Thank you forever and always.

What I love...

Since it's February the month of love..I decided that I would post 10 somethings I love everyday until Valentines...This will give you a change to learn a little more about me...

Today I choose...Eyes..

Eyes are a wonderful part of ourselves..It allows other to see a part of who we are they come in brown, blue and green. Eyes are beautiful, I would have to say that eyes are my favorite part of the body they tell so much about a person, how they feel even what they are thinking. Not only that but how wonderful it is to be able to see what our savior created for us. The trees, flowers, mountains, rivers, clouds, rain, snow etc... I love eyes.

In School...

Yesterday one of Qwades assignments was to write a story..And this is what he wrote I thought it was so cute so I'm sharing it with you (with his permission of course) For those of you who don't know I homeschool me kids and when I first introduced writing to Qwade he hated it and I didn't like to read it either (lol). But now his spelling has gotten so much better and I'm so proud of how far he has come...For those of you who can't read what he wrote here is its.
"I am Qwade and my girl friend is Zoee. my girlfriend is so nice to me. Zoee has brown hair and brown eyes. Shee lafst at me becas I'me sille. Thats why shee loves me."

I just relized that I can record on my camra so I recorded Qwade telling his story....

Visiting Teaching Purses for Febuary's lesson....

I got this idea from my Aunt Pam's Blog (she always has such creative idea like this.)So I decided to make some of my own to give to my ladies for Visiting Teaching..So I thought I'd share my finished product..I think they are so cute, I can't wait to give them to my ladies..Thanks Pam I love ya..

Deep Thoughts...

Today was the first time I've been able to go to church in almost two months because my work required me to work on Sundays...With me quiting and Kristosha now in nursery I really enjoyed myself..We talked about Why the creation,the fall and the atonement were so important and why we need to have them in our lives..One of the reasons I love my ward is because of the verity of people in different stages of life from the really old to the really young, we get so many people with different ideas and opinions... Anyway one of the sisters in Sunday school asked a question...
"If Satan knew the plan for salvation and about what needed to take place in order for us to return back to him, then why was Heavenly Father so angry with Satan for tempting eve to partake of the fruit?"... Think about that question.. It brings up a lot of what ifs doesn't it.. well it did in my ward.

As I thought about this question today a lot came to my mind about it. It may be right or wrong I don't know like I said this is just my thoughts I had about it. (Leave what you think if you'd like in the comments, I'd love to read what you have to say.)

I think that when God, Christ, Satan etc gathered together to discuss the plan of Salvation, the creation, fall, the atonement etc. I think that there was one plan with several different scenarios. but they all lead to one thing returning back to our father in heaven. Satan knew this but in is wicked mind he wanted to make a way for the plan to not happen, God in his infinite wisdom knew this too, for he knew Satan's heart, but like all parents we hope our children will make the right choices because remember we all have our free agency and so did Satan. God could not make him follow the plan however what God could do was make exceptions to the path or detours if you will. I think that is why God was angry with Satan, not really because Adam and eve partook of the fruit but because Satan didn't fallow the outlined plan. He went against Gods wishes and Satan knew that, but what he didn't and still doesn't know or understand is that God planed for this he made other paths available to us to choose from, so no matter the path we choose we can always find our way back to him "IF WE CHOOSE" that is the meat and potatoes of it, really. I would do the same for my children if there was something they wanted but had to accomplish other goals before getting that one they they desire I would give them every opportunity I could to make sure they could get what they desired. I believe our Father in Heaven has done the same for us. If this wasn't the case then how could we really have Free agency? Just food for thought...

Even Children think of this, maybe not in such a deep context but they do in fact my 4yr old came to me the other day after cleaning her room and very seriously she said "Mom, is Jesus controlling everyone?" I told her "no that we get to Choose what we do or don't do" She sat there for a moment thinking you could just see those wheels working.. Then she said "Mom, If we can choose is that why we need to choose the right and not wrong?" I looked at her and said with a smile "Yes sweetie that is exactly why. As long as we choose right Heavenly Father and Jesus will help us every day" She looked at me and smiled then said "Good, I'm glad everyone in my family isn't controlled by Jesus that we all choose the right" I smiled as she went off to play. As you see children even this young understand the importance of free agency. My Goal in life is to live my life worthy enough to fulfill my assignments here on earth so that I can report back to my Father in Heaven when the time comes, I pray that my children will continue to ask these questions and that I can give them the answers or give them the tools they need to find the answers they seek. I am grateful for free agency and to know that I can choose my own path. And I choose righteousness. I leave this with you all in the name of our Savior Jesus Christ, Amen.

What to do with my Baby Girl....

What do you do with a child who will not keep clothes or a diaper on..I have to redress Kristosha at least three times a day..It use to be cute now it's just frustrating because she now thinks it's fun to be naked...Oh boy what to do...
Too bad they don't make clothes that is kid friendly but kid impossible to undo...
Kristosha had found out that she can use her onezie as a bag or purse..I caught her putting as many of her blocks in her shirt as she could it was too funny to see her she look like pill-boy the muffin man, lol. And my sweet boy decided that he wanted to be apart of the action..Him and his faces...:)